Consider This...
7:06 p.m. | 2005-08-20
My sister tried to commit suicide this week.
My dad found her across town in a motel room…
I’ve been thinking about death a lot since it happened. Mainly about what it really consists of, and how her dying would affect my family.
She wasn’t remorseful when I went to see her the next day in the hospital. I’ll never forget what she said to me,
“I knew I was in trouble when the pills didn’t work.”
You know, I’ve dealt with issues about faith and religion my entire life. It’s been difficult for me to decipher what I actually believe and what has been fed to me from media, churches, and other people. I’m still trying to figure that out…
But there is one thing I do know. I know that if I honestly didn’t think that there would be a direct negative outcome in taking my own life, such as reincarnation back here, going to hell, or my soul ceasing to exist completely, If I thought for one second that I could just go to heaven and be at peace for eternity, I can’t say it wouldn’t cross my mind too…
Four people read my diary…
Thanks for the notes…