I wish I had caller ID so I could prepare myself for things like this....geeze...
10:54 p.m. | 2003-03-01
Brian called tonight
He sounded unsure and a little nervous
I�m guessing my closed ended answers too his simple questions didn�t help
There was a lot of silence
Stuttering
�How�ve you been?�
�I�ve been�
�Did you get my emails?�
�Yeah�
�Coming to church tomorrow?�
�Maybe.�
�Want to hang out tomorrow after I get off work?�
�Uhmm��
That was basically the extent of our five and a half minute conversation
I really suck.
Here he is, going out of his way to call me cause I know he�s worried about me.
And I act retarded.
But in complete honest, I still get the feeling he�s only been calling and emailing me because he feels he as to. Like, for some strange reason, because he is the Pastor�s son and because he has always told me he cares about me, he now feels he actually has to back it up.
I dunno.
I read into things a lot.
And I know I�m only kidding myself because I know Brian better than that
I still just have a hard time believing that a boy sincerely cares about me when he doesn�t have to.
I'm going to bed now...